Do you ever have those moments where you stop for a second and realize that you’re actually content with where life is and where it's taking you?
I had one today.
Despite all that’s happened this year with my family, we all seem to be doing ok and happy. Taking the best lessons out of the negative and looking forward to the positive. It’s made us better and stronger.
I have some amazing friends - Soo talented, compassionate, driven and inspiring.
Everyday they remind me of what is possible out there in this big world. From pretty much ruling the world to the most precious of marriages, they all teach me so much.
I couldnt be more grateful for the moments they have helped me, made me laugh or sent care packages on bad weeks.
Captured Design is headed in the right direction... busier and busier...
a fanbase that is growing. different shooting opportunities. new ideas being created.
All in all, life is sorting itself out in a beautiful way.
<3
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
another year older...
Weeks before my 26th birthday, I figured I would be fine.
Twenty-five had come and gone with ease...
But to my surprise, last week was a hard week...
Some may say it was my quarter-life crisis, the realization of finally dealing with and accepting the past.
I made mistakes.
I let people down.
I let myself down.
I did things for the wrong reasons.
I tried to be something I wasnt.
I didnt understand who I truly was.
I needed to be seen as perfect.
I never had a lot of self-love back then.
I never did see the great qualities and talents I had.
As much as Ive grown from this, Ive struggled to completely let go of it.
I've blamed myself for a long time over things I did and didnt do.
But sitting here tonight, I feel like a weight is gone.
I have this bright future ahead of me.
Twenty-five had come and gone with ease...
But to my surprise, last week was a hard week...
Some may say it was my quarter-life crisis, the realization of finally dealing with and accepting the past.
I made mistakes.
I let people down.
I let myself down.
I did things for the wrong reasons.
I tried to be something I wasnt.
I didnt understand who I truly was.
I needed to be seen as perfect.
I never had a lot of self-love back then.
I never did see the great qualities and talents I had.
As much as Ive grown from this, Ive struggled to completely let go of it.
I've blamed myself for a long time over things I did and didnt do.
But sitting here tonight, I feel like a weight is gone.
I have this bright future ahead of me.
Monday, November 1, 2010
would you like to touch my boob?! it's the thing to do.
You got to love hearing from your doctor…
‘I know we told you that this was all over and done with but after reviewing your file, we’ve decided that we’re going to continue to send you for tests every few months’
Lindsey is back on Lump Watch...
Monitering for growth and the possibility of morphing into cancer.
More breast exams and ultrasounds in my future.
Sort of feel like a cheap whore, with how many people have felt me up over the last couple of years.
Cant we, for once, just let the boyfriend do that job :)
Life is peachy.
‘I know we told you that this was all over and done with but after reviewing your file, we’ve decided that we’re going to continue to send you for tests every few months’
Lindsey is back on Lump Watch...
Monitering for growth and the possibility of morphing into cancer.
More breast exams and ultrasounds in my future.
Sort of feel like a cheap whore, with how many people have felt me up over the last couple of years.
Cant we, for once, just let the boyfriend do that job :)
Life is peachy.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Finding Balance...
Work. School. Shoot. Work. Clean. Edit. Work. School. Homework. Work. Deadline. Deadline. Work. Volunter. Work. School. Movie. Work. Fundraiser. Work.
‘Hi, My name is Lindsey. I work fulltime, go to college nights/weekends and building my own photography company. I’m also involved with various non-profit organizations and causes in the city. yes perhaps I’m a bit of an over-achiever but I’m always on the go, always doing something. And because of this, I’m getting FAT.’
HAHA.
In reality, I’m not so maybe I should rephrase…
I feel gross.
Any downtime I get seems to be spent exhausted.
This needs to change. I miss the energy provided from regular gym time. I miss the little extra bounce in my step.
How does one find the right balance of everything…
To be honest as bad as it may sound, the only time I seem to let myself take life slow, is when the boyfriend is around. We aren't able to see each other much so everything must slow down. enjoy our time when we have it. These little tidbits are good though, they seem to remind me of why I work soo hard. the reason why some days are long, draining and seemingly make me think im losing my mind.
I want to be my own boss - I want the freedom to choose where I work. I want the ability to easily travel for work or play. I want the freedom and time to choose where my abilities are needed and be involved in the community around me
I want that accomplishment.
Maybe I just want to be able to be successful yet be able to be at home. To live the best life possible with the man I end up marrying and to have the ability to watch my child learn and explore as much as possible (settle down mom, children are still undecided in my book)
But for now,
Just need more hours in the day so I can remain heathly and beautiful <3
‘Hi, My name is Lindsey. I work fulltime, go to college nights/weekends and building my own photography company. I’m also involved with various non-profit organizations and causes in the city. yes perhaps I’m a bit of an over-achiever but I’m always on the go, always doing something. And because of this, I’m getting FAT.’
HAHA.
In reality, I’m not so maybe I should rephrase…
I feel gross.
Any downtime I get seems to be spent exhausted.
This needs to change. I miss the energy provided from regular gym time. I miss the little extra bounce in my step.
How does one find the right balance of everything…
To be honest as bad as it may sound, the only time I seem to let myself take life slow, is when the boyfriend is around. We aren't able to see each other much so everything must slow down. enjoy our time when we have it. These little tidbits are good though, they seem to remind me of why I work soo hard. the reason why some days are long, draining and seemingly make me think im losing my mind.
I want to be my own boss - I want the freedom to choose where I work. I want the ability to easily travel for work or play. I want the freedom and time to choose where my abilities are needed and be involved in the community around me
I want that accomplishment.
Maybe I just want to be able to be successful yet be able to be at home. To live the best life possible with the man I end up marrying and to have the ability to watch my child learn and explore as much as possible (settle down mom, children are still undecided in my book)
But for now,
Just need more hours in the day so I can remain heathly and beautiful <3
Monday, October 18, 2010
Vote, please!
Be the change you want to see…
So Vote.
I don’t understand why people choose not to vote.
‘I don’t know who is running or know anything about them so why should I vote’ – this is the age of the internet and google, people! it takes all of ten minutes, if you truly are just that busy… If you live under a rock, local newspapers are a great tool as well…
‘There’s no candidate that I want to vote for’ – well how about the process of elimination, weed out the unattractive and vote for the person that remains. It’s rare that you have a candidate that you completely agree 100% with on everything. So choose the best out of the bunch.
Or ‘I just don’t care’ – How can you not?! Our leaders affect all of us, whether you believe it or not. I’m sure we’ve all complained about taxes and construction before… If you don’t vote, I think you give up your right to complain about anything that happens.
Regardless of what you believe and who you vote for, we should all vote.
It’s one of those great freedoms we have, that soo many of us take for granted. We have the ability to choose our leaders, the people that run our cities, provinces and our country… we have a say in what goes on while many people in the world still do not.
Its what our Canadian Forces are fighting for in Afghanistan, the rights of people... people’s freedom to choose. people’s right to be heard.
Maybe people just forget how lucky we are to be in Canada and to be Canadian.
So Vote.
I don’t understand why people choose not to vote.
‘I don’t know who is running or know anything about them so why should I vote’ – this is the age of the internet and google, people! it takes all of ten minutes, if you truly are just that busy… If you live under a rock, local newspapers are a great tool as well…
‘There’s no candidate that I want to vote for’ – well how about the process of elimination, weed out the unattractive and vote for the person that remains. It’s rare that you have a candidate that you completely agree 100% with on everything. So choose the best out of the bunch.
Or ‘I just don’t care’ – How can you not?! Our leaders affect all of us, whether you believe it or not. I’m sure we’ve all complained about taxes and construction before… If you don’t vote, I think you give up your right to complain about anything that happens.
Regardless of what you believe and who you vote for, we should all vote.
It’s one of those great freedoms we have, that soo many of us take for granted. We have the ability to choose our leaders, the people that run our cities, provinces and our country… we have a say in what goes on while many people in the world still do not.
Its what our Canadian Forces are fighting for in Afghanistan, the rights of people... people’s freedom to choose. people’s right to be heard.
Maybe people just forget how lucky we are to be in Canada and to be Canadian.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Why the heck am I settling?!
Why am I sitting here on the safe side?!
Anyone that knows me slightly well enough, knows I believe…
in living the fullest life.
in being passionate about what you believe in.
going after what you want.
finding the best out of everything.
knowledge is power.
being a grown-up with a child’s heart and spirit.
who is this that ive become..
enough is enough.
no more.
Why am I sitting here on the safe side?!
Anyone that knows me slightly well enough, knows I believe…
in living the fullest life.
in being passionate about what you believe in.
going after what you want.
finding the best out of everything.
knowledge is power.
being a grown-up with a child’s heart and spirit.
who is this that ive become..
enough is enough.
no more.
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