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Learning to say No to my ambition…

About a year and a half ago, I vowed to never have a mediocre life.

It meant taking every opportunity shown to me.
It meant learning and school.
It meant networking.
It meant engaging anything and everything
It’s gotten me far.

I’m so use to driving forward, that I feel guilty when I don’t.
I was given the opportunity to start my Social Media Program sooner than expected.
It came with a price: I would behind from the start and I needed to be in class tonight.

Apart of me jumped up and said ‘Let’s go’…
The other part sat here: ‘your energy levels are already low with the detox and you promised to take care of yourself better’

As much as I don’t like the decision I made, it was the right one.
Instead rushing across the city, harassing a teacher about what Ive missed and fighting the urge to get a latte to make it through the 3 hour class. Im going home to make a good dinner, have a bath and watch a movie.

I have to remind self that things, such as school, can wait.
Health has to be the bigger priority.

a little celebration...

Despite being pulled across the city for a five minute talk, there was nothing new to report...

so thankful.

just tell me...

I don't think you ever get use to the phone call and words...

'The doctor needs to see you about test results. When can you come in?'

Three years ago, they found it...

A little lump in my left breast.

I go for follow-up testing twice a year, making sure there is no growth.

This could be just another explanation appointment and there's nothing new to report.

But it always scares me... 

Both my mom and aunt had cancer last year, and soo grateful of their successful battles.

Where does that leave me in the grande scheme of things? Where in the genetic pool am I sitting?

Am I destined to get cancer at some point in my life?

I wish they could tell you over the phone, so you didn't have the time to ponder the outcome...

Just throw it in my face and be done with it.

Wednesday cant come soon enough...

 

Every. Single. Day.

even when you're a sick little monkey.

always and forever...

Sitting on the board looking back at the beach, the current lightly rocking the every day worries away, patiently waiting for that next wave... 

nothing but time... 

i miss my favorite place in the world ♥

Bucket List #3