poor little chicken.

For about 10 years, I only ate chicken…
No steak, No hamburgers & etc.

I’m pretty sure it drove my father nuts, ‘we live in Alberta, home of Alberta ‘AAA’ Beef. How can you not eat it’… Alberta beef is top-rated and seemingly a highlight when the relatives visit from Ontario. Even now, it rare for me to eat anything other than chicken… the odd steak with my father and the every once-and-while hamburger.

I’m pretty sure I would have gone vegetarian if I had figured out how to do so properly and if my family hadn’t refused tofu. Mind you, I really don’t have much of liking for it either. It was ruined by a horrible attempt by my mom, which completely turned off everyone. So chicken breast remained in my diet as protein, making sure my body got what it needed.

But do our bodies really need meat? Look at where we’ve come from… How did we start? Leaves, Nuts, Berries… I wonder when man first looked at another animal and thought to himself ‘I should eat that’… But somewhere along the line we became this all-consuming species. Seemingly the only places we haven’t taken over yet is the places we haven’t figured out how to reach yet, which are far and few inbetween.

Now I find myself in sort of moral dilemma, sitting watching Food Inc last night, they showed chickens being farmed (grown) in mass production in horrible conditions. They cut to a farm doing it right, the way it should be done in all cases. Natural. They killed their chicken the best way possible, quick and painless; slicing it’s head off. I couldn’t watch. I’m grateful for the life that is given but I don’t feel its right to consume something that I can’t watch the death of.

Now sitting here debating what to do…
Do I de-sensitize myself to the killing of an animal or do I re-work my diet, which seems quite daunting?

Must ponder more.

Watch Food Inc.

Changes need to be made.

irish cream in my coffee.

i heart saturday mornings. rolling out of bed without alarm around 9am, throwing on lululemon pants and one of my disney t-shirts, grinding coffee beans as the eggs poach and the toast pops from the toaster. An endless supply of morning cartoons to pick from. Whether it be Rocky & Bullwinke or Scooby Doo. In these moments, I re-charge... These are the moments where all the drama and stress from the week dissipates.

I find that I have been pondering about life a lot these past few days, after once again getting news of how our bodies are not invincible, as much as we wish they were. Reminded that even if we think were healthy, we may not actually be. That a moment can change everything we think we know.

With her disgnosis and my scare last year puts me at a higher risk, of facing it myself one day. This thought alone makes me question everything pertaining my body. What can i control? What cant i control? What do i need to change in how i live my life to make sure my body is in stellar condition? And yes i understand that even people doing everything right still get sick, its rather giving it the best possible chance to survival.

Also that dreams are good but not when you get stuck in them, when all your time goes into them. life has a tendency to pass by when when your trying to be something or get somewhere, rather than fully enjoying the moments put in front of you. so learn to let yourself take that time off to take that mini roadtrip or that few hours to hit that family bunch... Its more likely to help you, than harm you...

I think people have tendency to forget how to be truly happy. To understand what makes them happy and to cherish it. To take the time to have these moments. We're always in a hurry. Always trying to get the most things done in the quickiest time possible. Im guilty of that, thats for sure. I want to slow down, but will the rest of the world let me do that?

I battle with the fact i dont want to be ordinary... im rather discontent with where i am right now. 

Change is needed in my life.
To what extent is un-determined still.

If only I could just get lost in the woods right now...

new game plan...

For those that don’t know, I’m apart of a photography program already… A continuing education one - you know the type where you can take classes when ever you want. Well I’m half way done the certificate requirements.

There is a possibility that I could completely skip first year at acad and go directly into my major with the completion of the certificate.

So here we are… I’m going to push through 5 courses this summer and apply to acad for winter semester.

I find myself quite content with this plan...
More than what I thought I would be.
Takes a load of stress off my plate.

applying to art school sucks...

you know what i hate...
writing personal statements.

self-promotion like this makes me feel like a douche.
'hey im super talented. so i deserve to be in your program more than him'.

ive tried to write this page statement for a few days now, im still left with nothing...

can't i just write 'pretty please accept me into your program' and be done with it?!

ive been passive my whole life. a trait im pretty sure has held me back in the past. the 'i dont wanna step on anyone's toes so i let opportunities pass me by' needs to go.

if only it was easy.

anyways back to staring at the blank word document...

been awhile.

3 weeks without a blog post…
I hate how time flies by these days.
It’s like a blink is a week…

Ive been fighting a cold for about a week now. Mind you im always fighting a cold. I don’t really think Im ever actually over a cold. Just sits there dormant for a few days and I think that I am better. I finally let myself have a sick day yesterday. I can’t remember the last time I took a day off. But I needed it. Weekends seemed to always be packed with stuff to do. Errands, Chores, Family & Friends, you know how it goes.. It was nice to be able to relax and take it easy. To drink Timmys and watch endless hours of Olympics. Took A to get our nails done late afternoon before she heads to Basic TOMORROW. Holy crap!

I’m going to start the P90X Lean program tonight. Apparently from the reviews, I will not be able to move tomorrow.

I use to be super active. Gym 5-6x/week. Soccer 3x/ week. Pilates 1-2x/week. I was a machine. Though I’m not lazy by any means, compared to that I feel that I am. I’ve signed up for a 10K run in May, as soon as the majority of the ice melts I’ll start training.

My mom also thinks I have a dietary allergy of some sort.... After years of crappy stomach aches, we’re still trying to pinpoint it. Starting by cutting out diary *cries*. I miss cheese and yogurt already. Luckily I don’t mind the taste of soy milk.

I miss having a dog so much.

the bucket list...

after reading yesterday's post, i thought i would start my bucket list on here...
it will be a short one for now but will grow in time.

what does lindsey want to do in her life....

1. be pulished in national geographic.
2. take a trip to help children in a country less fortunate.
3. ride an elephant.
4. have a child.
5. build a gigantic sand castle.
6. own a piano and play it regularly.
7. take cooking lessons. lots of them.
8. cross-canada roadtrip... stopping in every little random town & crazy landmark...
9. volunteer.
10.
11.
12.

to be continued....