Been Thinking...

You know I figured I would be almost ruling the world by now (not actually but I’m sure you know what I mean)…

Looking around, I feel like I’m nowhere near where I should be.

Leaving this job is long overdue but I’m not sure where to go from here. I need something better than this. More rewarding; Photography won’t pay the bills for awhile.

The photography stuff is coming together; I shoot way more than use to. Fabulous!!!!!!
Even planning to design a business card in the next month and start looking into setting up a company website, which currently seems like a daunting task because I have soo little time lately.

Was out with the girls last night for the first time in a while due my schedule and such; I really miss nights like that. I miss my girls and our nights. Just nice to sit back, have wine and laugh. I need more of this.

I want to go to surf camp in Tofino with the girls.
I want to backpack through Europe or Australia & New Zealand.
There was a thought of going to Thailand to ride an elephant through the jungle, like my friends had on their trip.
I want to go back to NYC and skip through Times Square.

I guess I’m starting to realize I’ve putting a lot of things on the back burner.
I’ve put so much energy into other things that I forgot about me. My dreams as me, myself and I.

I’ve been complacent for too long now.
I need to move away from that. I need to start challenging myself again and taking leaps.

Welcome Back, Miss Lindsey :)

can't stop listening to....

Some things we don't talk about
better do without
and just hold a smile
falling in and out of love
a scene their proud of
together all the while

You can never say never while we don't know it
time and time again
younger now then we were before
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian from all that's coming down
steady your hand

You can never say never while we don't know it
time time and time again
younger now then we were before
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go.

We're falling apart,
we're coming together,
again and again
we're crawling apart,
but we're falling together,
falling together
together again

don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go. (oh oh oh)
don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go. (ohhhh ohhh)
don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go. (ohhh ohhh)
don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go.(ohohhohhh)

Never Say Never - The Fray.

am i ready for this :)

I just booked my first paying photography event… holy crap…

I’ve done stuff for friends including a wedding, just to gain experience…

A community college graduation…. Its 2 months away, which gives me a bit of time to prepare. I’m nervous about it, questioning if I’m ready for it but I need to start taking leaps to make this dream become a reality.

I really need to start getting my name out….

Wish me luck.

Typical.

The Un-Realistic Crush.....

Zachary Quinto

Oddly Enough, playes.....

Spock!!!!!

He's also on Heroes :)

Update: Turns Out He's Gay. Of Course.

Remembering Michael.

Can we remember the music legend instead of the troubled man???

I never agreed with the personal choices he made. The life he chose to live.
But I still loved him. I loved the music.The music that became a part of my life.
That when someone asked me yesterday what my favorite song was by him, it took me a moment… There’s soo many good songs….

That last night I blared ‘Billy Jean’ the whole way home after hearing of his passing The song that if I was having a shitty ass day, could always put a smile on my face and get me dancing.

Thriller.
The Free Willy theme song….
School Dances…
Remembering everyone trying to do a decent moonwalk…
He was apart of all of our lives. Im sure we all have a moment that includes his music.

He was always a favorite. People questioned and gave me grief about it.
He lived very different life than pretty much everyone.
Bred to be a child star. Emotional & Phyiscal Abuse.
His whole life has been in the spotlight.
He never had a childhood. Searched constantly for one.

I think we all would be at least a little fucked up if we were in the situation.
Child Stars always seem to fall tragically.

That behind the superstar we made, that there was a man struggling.
Mentally. Financally.

Not to say that certain actions are condoned by this…

Is it fair that even after he has left the world that we still ridicule and joke about his life?
What was done, was done. Move on. Focus on the good, instead of the bad.

Let us see the little boy in Jackson 5.
To remember the great things he did.
To realize that no one is perfect. Mistakes are made.
That he should be remember in history for his music and that alone.

Thank you for your music.
For the way you changed music.
May you live forever as a legend.

Rest In Peace, MJ.